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Longtime Deep Pain Without Any Solutions

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By wayne.s

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In 1979, I experienced a ninety-day medical event that changed my life forever. Within two months after the unthinkable event, I successfully suppressed any thought of it. However, I also started thinking of suicide.

I got married in 1982, and we are still together today. Some days I can't believe that we are still together. I've been living with Major Depressive Disorder every day up to the present. Up until 2003, I never imagined that I had a problem, even though I would get in fights and I couldn't keep a job.

Today at 70, I know what happened and how it has changed everything about me. But I'm on a mission. I'm tired of always being depressed and thinking of killing myself. Somehow, I'm going to find a way to shut this cycle down and start enjoying life. The worst that can happen is that nothing will change.

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